wwhhoo cold night air is blowing...

...through the window.

rainy season is coming i just know it. and classes are starting soon. my adrenaline is pumping.
i'll look forward to wet shoes and everything else in my bag, minor flooding, and suspension of classes *remembers 2007-2008 school year that year was the awesomest staying  inside school with wet uniform and cold loving classmates won't agree that teh aircon should be turned off while the others hide inside their damp jackets trembling while talking with friends, laughing. those memories wont return but it's fun remembering them, and it's all because of teh cold wind~)


trying to have happy thoughts while trying not to sink in depression again(with me having internet you can see this coming ) things going on are scary, human is insane scary. it's too much for a 17 years-old looking 14 years-old to handle.

ppl say I'm lazy but that's just my brain trying to figure out what is the next thing i should do, and no one realizes that. the last time i was really happy and stopped thinking about these thign is when my music teacher picked me to be the leader of our music project. i pulled three al nighter just to finish the comic. those times i felt like "yes one step closer to my dream of being a comic artist with these drawings" and "wish my groupmates are studying instead of thinking of this, exams are next week." but then i sunk back again due to comments(insert sarcastic laugh here)

also reason for unfinished requests, sorry.
_{(that and theres another reason for teh unfinished requests: i don't want it half-assed looking)}

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again no guts to talk in private about this.. wait it's silly enough to write it in public right? OTL
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in 15 mins this shall go to my tumblr